I’m very torn about this book. Knight had me up at nights, totally enthralled and at the same time frustrated. I loved it, and then I hated it. I don’t know how many discussions I had about this book with friends but weirdly also with myself (not out loud, mind you, but in my head). For me, Knight is like glue that just keeps sticking to me even though I try to get it off. While that does speak for a really good book with a well told story, there were too many things that bothered me to fully embrace it.
I’m not going to go on about the plot because frankly, there isn’t much to tell. Girl with wacky friends meets a mysterious guy she gets involved with. She has doubts, they fight a bit, have lots of sex, trust issues get solved, happy end. While the plot of Knight is very simple, Kristen Ashley added a very complex dimension through her characters. Knight is mysterious but we get the feeling that he isn’t a good guy from the start. There’s just something about him that screams dangerous territory. I feel that Knight is really what this book is all about. In the story Anya has to accept him the way he is in order to be with him but as the reader, we kind of have to do the same thing. If you can accept Knight and his dark side, then you’re probably going to love this book. While I was intrigued by Knight at first, he didn’t win me over and that’s the reason for my 3 star rating.
I don’t want to give too much of the book away. I don’t want to rob you of anything but in order to explain my problems I have to go into detail a little bit. I don’t care if you call it BDSM, S&M, bondage, light bondage, Dom/Sub, or whatever you can come up with, those are just terms and don’t define the book. The fact is that Knight is into control. In the bedroom that is totally fine with me but, for my liking, he overdoes it. He tells Anya not to dance, she doesn’t dance. He doesn’t want her to have a few drinks, she switches to water. Really?? This is not taking care of someone, or having their back, that is freakishly controlling and I don’t like it. Simple as that. I found it annoying and I felt insulted on Anya’s behalf. I got angry for her, when she should have been, but wasn’t.
While there is an explanation for Knight’s behavior, it shouldn’t have been an excuse. Anyway, Anya doesn’t care, so I thought, I’m not going to judge and just keep reading. There were a few bumps along the road but the book was growing on me…until the end, when Anya finds out about Knight’s little side business. I’m not saying that the business itself is a problem for me, because it isn’t. Some women find themselves in situations we can’t imagine and it’s better they have a safe way of doing what. What most irked me is that Knight almost portrays himself as a Samaritan, as if he does it out of the goodness of his heart. That’s how I perceived it and it bothered me a lot.
He might not be a cruel man but Knight is just too dark and too bad for me. I couldn’t stand how Anya follows him like a dog instead of standing up for herself, because Knight would break it off if she did. He likes control, remember?
That said, I still love Kristen Ashley. I am a die-hard fan and I actually love her more for this book. Why, you ask? Because she writes what she writes and you either get her or you don’t. At the same time, she writes a variety of genres and types of books. There’s something for everyone! Her style is what kept me reading and not just dropping the book. Her writing is unique and exceptional and I always enjoy it, even though I might not be in tune with the content.
Last but not least, I quickly want to mention Kristen’s Author’s Note. In the Author’s Note of Knight, she talks about the beauty in everyone and how we are all special in our own way.
This is my favorite part:
“Embrace yourself, even your faults, and understand you have something to contribute and more, people want it, love it, crave it. […]Just as every woman should feel beautiful and worthwhile, she should feel desirable and explore her sexuality with a partner who makes this safe and protects her and their relationship along the way”
This made me appreciate the book and the message Kristen Ashley wanted to send, even though the story didn’t suit me personally.
I had problems with Knight but I still recommend it. I find that it’s a very personal book and everyone has their own opinion on it. It is just a matter of what’s working for you, so read it and I’ll be looking forward to hear what you think!
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